The wrist has not fully recovered, and the condition is also 75% recovered.
I discovered that my self-blame personality was so serious before and I suffered a lot.
To this day, I understand the problem, but I cannot completely get rid of it. I can only understand the problem.
I hope writing it out will make me feel better.
There are a lot of things on my mind, so I deal with big and small things one by one.
It's Qingming Festival soon.
In a blink of an eye, 23 years have passed.
This time I plan to buy flowers, bring a broom, and consider whether to bring a pot of Clivia, which is a flower my mother liked to raise when she was alive, as well as Milanese flowers, but forget about Milanese flowers, they are too delicate and difficult to grow and carry.
When I was young, I didn't know how to understand my mother. Now, every time I think about the past, I constantly review the path my mother has taken, and I feel heartbroken and sad.
The moment my mother passed away, I didn't really understand what it meant to me.
As I grow older, my understanding of this meaning becomes more profound, and its weight becomes heavier, just like the weights on the scale are constantly stacked. There are no words to express this inner feeling.
My father's ridiculous state and stories in the past few years are told as a joke to my mother. After so many years, my mother should not be angry with my father. She has already passed the stage of anger and will only find it ridiculous.
If you reach the realm, you can regard life as a ridiculous comedy.
My 50th birthday is approaching. When I was a child, I thought birthdays were my own special day. Now I understand that birthdays are my mother’s special day. It is an unforgettable day for my mother. Although I experienced it with my mother on that day, it will not leave any memory. It is said that people’s memories before the age of four will be erased. This birthday, I plan to spend it with my mother and take the cake to the cemetery. I calculated the lunar calendar for my birthday this year, March 16th, so I set off on that day.
Looking at myself now, it has been 23 years since my mother passed away. I have changed a lot, and some of the changes are reversed. Before the age of 50, I hope that I can truly understand one thing. After 50, I will no longer be troubled by it in the future.