November 18, 2024
The past two months have passed extremely fast, and my mood has been ups and downs. The things affected still have long-term consequences and delay personal plans.
I didn’t plan to spend more time on work before. Although some problems should be solved, and some can continue to be improved and researched, I just don’t have much enthusiasm for work. If I start to specialize in research, I will spend a lot of time every day. If I don’t get it right, I won’t be able to eat and sleep. In theory, it is better to take it slowly and step by step every day, but in fact it is not possible. If you don’t do other things well, you will have no intention to do it, which is a contradiction.
These past two months have been quite chaotic inside, affected by external influences.
If the mind is not calm, the arrangements will not be good, which will lead to irritability, leading to a fall while riding a bike, and a serious wrist injury.
I felt even more irritable just after the fall. All bad things that happened were directly related to my mood. The most frightening thing is that when you are in this kind of mood, your sensitivity will be greatly reduced, you will not feel anything that can bring happiness, you will not feel anything, and your inertia will be greatly increased. You will just be paralyzed at home, not wanting to do anything. I am very afraid of this state.
Emotional management, self-regulation, changing your perspective, letting yourself go, and accepting all imperfections are all useless and will not change the emotional problem. Maybe the emotional problem does not lie in the emotion itself, but in your own environment, a soft environment.
I was still hesitating whether to spend this winter at home or travel. At home, I can work and study at ease, research AI, see the possibilities for career expansion, eat, drink, read, and be comfortable and healthy.
When traveling, you will experience various uncomfortable situations and worry about various things in life. In addition to bringing a little freshness to your mind.
If you choose to travel alone, you will not choose to travel alone unless you are in a particularly strong mood.
The relationship between relatives and family members is complex, subtle, and absurd.
Injury to the soft triangular tissue of the wrist affects dressing, cooking, and even holding the rice bowl. It is a great blessing to realize that my limbs are intact and my body is safe.
Occasionally, certain nerves in the wrist and forearm hurt.
Da Bing is amazing. His concepts of life, his own status, and his views on everything in the world are almost all self-consistent. It is remarkable that people in this world can be self-consistent. Da Bing’s life experience makes his spiritual expression fuller. Some people will change after experiencing the vicissitudes of life. He is numb and has no sense of things, but Dabing, at the right time, will still flash out expressions that make people feel warm. Whether it is through text or online video live broadcast, he is also calm, self-aware, and has awe of the world. He is a person who still emits warmth after experiencing vicissitudes of life.